The trip

I went to Umbai. yes umbai. Rented a car with Athirah Othman, Kak Azreena, Syam (Nik Rafizah) and Farhana.
Kak Azreena was a t the wheels while me, Athirah and Syam were in the back sit, talking and laughing like crazy. We stopped at Malacca Central where i bought ticket to go to Kuala Lumpur next week. Bought some fruits to eat.
When we reached Umbai, Kak Azreena allowed me to drive a bot at the parking lot. This guy went in the wrong direction and dare to "pretend" to want to crash into our car. He should be careful. What if he slipped and he really crashed into us?
Then we went to pray. A few elderly ladies and children came in and made a lot of noise. I don't understand why some people make so much noise even in the surau? Do they not see us praying?
Then we went to eat. WE ordered kerang, squid (fried and sambal) and Ikan tiga rasa.
It was ok and we had an enjoyable time forcing the food down (seriously we Malaysians are very lucky to have all this food, yet we always can see people wasting them away, this includes me.)
After dinner, we drove back. Kak Azreena allowed me to test drive on the high-way. It was a straight road, but it was a new experience for me; driving in the night. Felt nice~
Reached MMu and rushed to ACR building because Syam wanted to watch Uya sing. But Uya's performance was canceled. I will post some pictures of the trip later. Had fun and i just finished putting my inai design on my hand. looks good to me. :)

Quote of the day: The moment when yesterday becomes the past and today becomes present is truly a miracle.

with sleepy eyes... i sleep away

~owari

To Rhubaica

Enjoy Downloading~~~~
Go to www.mininova.org
Then under search type the title of the stuff you want.
After that Click the thing that you want to download. But you have to pay attention to two things.
One, make sure the seeds are a lot more than the leechers. If the leechers are more than the seeds that means it will download quite slow.
For example if the leechers are 40 and the seed are just 5 than means leechers are more by 8 times. If leechers are 20 but seeds are 15 the ratio is still normal and you can download at a acceptable speed. This depends if there are a lot of seeds. Your choice.
Second if there is no seeds at all, then dont download. You will just waste your time.

Once you click which one you want to download, this window will appear. The can you see "download this torrent" ? Click that and save it some where. For me, i like to just simply dump and save it on my desktop.

This is how your torrent file will look like after downloaded (minus the red thingy. hahaha. And it also depends where you saved the file when you downloaded it.)

After you got the torrent file and saved it, right click the torrent file and under "Open With" click "BitComet" or what ever torrent downloader you have (such as U torrent)
Once, you click open with Bitcomet, the window shown above will appear. Check all the check box and click Ok. After you click ok, it will automatically download the file for you.
The blue box up there shows your download speed. Blue is download and yellow is upload.
YOu Have to make sure you set the download speed limits. If you dont know how, I suggest you ask Najji. Because i myself didnt set the limits for my Bitcomet. I had my senior to help me. muahahaha.

Thats all. If you still have problem, contact me. If you miss me contact me. XD

With love, adyla

Taiko and cars

Went to Jusco. Josh spent me and Siow Wern. Thanks Josh! Then me and Josh competed on Taiko and as usual I won. XD muahhohohohohhoho
After that on our way back Josh allowed me to drive. And boy were they scared of my driving.
I really suck. sobs
Had fun even though somethings hurt me today. But those thing will slowly be plastered with joy and friends. Love you all.
I miss my family.

I want to go home. I wish to get out of malacca. T-T

~owari

Busybody

Ok~
Busybody is a person who busies him/herself in other people's business. Hence being called busybody.

One thing, I want to ask. Do you people know how I feel? Hmmm? Do you?
WEll, If you cant answer that what gives you the right to ask me why I did that?
Considering the burning anger i had that day (causing me to punch the walls at least 5 times, till my knuckle hurts and considering the pain i felt after being disappointed yet again by a friend), its no surprise of what I did. And you want to know what? I dont regret what I did.
You have never seen me mad ok! If I am truly mad, you will see me yelling, screaming and crying all at once.
Im not sure if I hurt his/her feelings. But he/her accepts that its their fault, they apologized. He even said thank you for being honest to him!
What I did cant even qualify for publicity or publicly humiliating him/her. All i did was state that I was pissed. Its the truth. So what if people knew that I am pissed at him/her.
Everthing was solved in the end and everyone is ok again and suddenly you come and butt your nose in and ask me why I am mad as if I am the villain. You even said "You shouldnt have done that. It would be better if you said to him straight."

DO YOU FREAKING KNOW WHAT WOULD HAPPENED IF I SAID TO HIM FACE TO FACE????? I WOULD HAVE EXPLODED AND CRIED ON THE SPOT AND "THAT" MY FRIEND WILL MAKE HIM MORE EMBARRASSED.

So dear friend, please don't assume you know what happened. please dont tell me what I should do if you dont know how I feel. Its not always that I am pissed at people. I get pissed when I am really pissed. So PLEASE, DONT ACT LIKE YOU KNOW WHAT HAPPENED!

STAY OUT OF THIS!!!! CAUSE YOU JUST MADE ME FEEL ALL ANGRY AGAIN JUST WHEN I THOUGHT I CAN FINALLY RELAX!

~OWARI

Mistakes can be forgiven

Thanks to Watermelon and Banana who apologized.
Now at least I am not angry anymore.
You made your promises and i hold you to your word.
There won't be a next time. You both have to earn my trust and faith again.
PLease dont fail me again.
I would also like to apologize if I said anything to hurt your feelings.
Thanks for apologizing.
And ... apology accepted.

~owari

[haizzzz.... due to some secrecy issues and plus I am feeling guilty, I have edited this as well. haizz]

IDIOTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Idiots! IDIOTS! STUPID! I am so STUPID for depending on my friends! ARGH!
I knew this was going to happen! BANANA! PAPAYA! ORANGE! ARGHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I woke up with a horrible mood since i slept at 2 am doing the scholarship thing and the designs for the brochure thing! Then I went to class late. I was rushing with my summary then I hear Godzilla telling me that he didn't do. Oh GOD was i pissed. Yes Godzilla, i was pissed at you. YES you! It lasted for awhile then i decided to give you work you would do the last summary.
(ironically im listening to a jap song saying "Arigatou" Thats SO far from what I am feeling towards my certain friends now).
Thankfully Godzilla agreed to do the last job (IF you didnt Godzilla, I would have hated you on the spot)
Then, if I am not mistaken I reminded Watermelon to go look for an article when he was in the library and he give me crap like "have to study for midterm." What?!?!?!? YOu think you are the only one with midterm!?!?!? I sacrificed hours of study hour to do all this crap and NOW i have to do your part too because you were so rajin to get an article from the internet at 2am and printed it without reading it at all!!?!?!?!
HOW DARE YOU SAY BAD THINGS ABOUT Banana! SHE AT LEAST CARED ENOUGH TO ASK ME ABOUT IT DURING THE HOLIDAYS!!!! WHILE YOU WERE RELAXING YOUR BUTT SOMEWHERE!!!
DONT GIVE ME CRAP LIKE "MY BEST IS ALWAYS THE BEST WHEN YOU DONT HAVE ANYTHING!!!!!!!!!!! NOTHING YOU HEAR ME! NOTHING!"
God help me. I am frustrated, pissed, angry, and disappointed now.
Not only Banana disappointed me, but even Watermelon (no surprise there.)
Banana. I had so much faith in your efforts. I cant believe this is what i get. But shockingly I am more pissed at Watermelon then you. Watermelon had the NERVES TO SAY HIS WORK IS THE BEST I WANT TO PULL HIS MOUTH OUT. I WANT TO KILL HIM THEN REVIVE HIM AND KILL HIM ALL OVER AGAIN. GOD I HATE ARROGANT PEOPLE! THERES LIMITS OK!
HOW CAN YOU COMPARE YOURSELF TO US HARDWORKING PEOPLE!
Grape AND Apple DID THEIR WORK DURING THE BREAK! I HAD TO RUN AROUND MALACCA, THE LIBRARY, MALACCA CENTRAL, JUSCO AND EVEN U CENTER TO LOOK FOR ARTICLE!
HOW DARE YOU GIVE ME YOUR CRAP! ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HOW CAN YOU EVER COMPARE TO US!!>!?!?!?!? I HAVE TO DO TWO ARTICLE NOW AND ITS ALL YOUR LAZY ASS FAULT!
I SWEAR Watermelon HOW IN THE WORLD DID YOU THINK YOUR WORK AS BEST WHEN YOU SHOW UP WITH LAST MINUTE WORK!
EVEN IF MY WORK WAS LAST MINUTE I PUT HUGE EFFORT IN GETTING IT AS FAST AS POSSIBLE AND AS GOOD AS POSSIBLE IN ORDER NOT TO FAIL grape AND apple WHO PUT THEIR EFFORT IN THIS. AND WHAT DID YOU DO! SURE YOU LOOKED FOR AN ARTICLE, SURE YOU TALK A LOT BUT WHAT ARE THE RESULTS! DONT SAY YOU GAVE YOUR BEST ALRIGHT!
I FOUND AN ARTICLE, PHOTOCOPIED IT AND WENT UP THE LIBRARY 4 TIMES ALL IN 1 HOUR TO DO THE WORK YOU TOOK TWO WEEKS TO DO!
WTF!!?!?!!?!?!? YOU TOOK 2 WEEKS AND I TOOK AN HOUR! HOW CAN YOU SAY YOU ARE THE BEST! ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
YOU ARROGANT BASTARD! YOU ARE MY FRIEND BUT GOD HOW I HATE YOUR ATTITUDE WHEN IT COMES TO WORK!
YOU SAY FRIENDSHIP IS IMPORTANT AND YOU CHERISH YOUR FRIENDS. BUT IF THIS IS HOW YOU TREAT THE HARDWORK YOUR FRIENDS DO, I SO WANT TO KILL YOU!
DAMNATION!

AND GUESS WHAT! I MISSED TWO HOURS OF ISLAMIC STUDIES. THIS IS A STUPIDITY ON MY PART. I WAS SLEEPING WITH A FEVER AND CRAZY PAINFUL STOMACH ACHE!

I WANT TO CRY BUT I CANT BECAUSE THIS IS SUCH A STUPID LITTLE THING TO CRY ABOUT!

I HAVE ALWAYS KNOWN THAT I CANT DEPEND ON PEOPLE, BUT I SOMEHOW FORGOT THAT LITTLE DETAIL. GOOD THING THIS REMINDED ME NEVER TO DEPEND ON OTHERS, BE THEY FRIEND OR FOE!

WITH AN ANGRY HEART I SCOWL AWAY!

~OWARI

[edited after i gained my rationality and after i realized some people are reading this]

Frustration

GAhhhh~~~ I finally manage to register for the Yayasan Sime-Darby scholarship after 20 minutes of filling the form. I hate filling in forms especially when it does not involve food. sigh~
I tried to register for BAnk Negara but the link for that webpage is either broken or lost. Whatever.
Next will be to post my letter to ocbc. Haizzz~~~~ More scholarship hunting.
My pra-test was ok..... The engine gave out once near the traffic light and i got scolded. I really need to practice driving on the road more. Sobs.
I got RM30 and a MIROS (Malaysia Institute of Road Safety Research) Mug. ALl for driving their MyVi car a bit for their research. Good bargain I say.
Then came back to campus late (did I mention I skipped two class for the driving thing).
At tomyam with speed of light, prayed and went to PCA tutorial (cant skip anymore, my attendance is red already).
Then after classes go eat somemore.
Then had my PBU (intro to bus Management) Midterm. YAy.... I got 7 answers wrong.
Then went to eat. again
Then had to go library (climb up the stairs 4 times because the lift was spoiled) to photocopy the missing part of my article. Met Alex, Jason and Renga. Went over to remind Renga to look for article (may I remind you that 'he' is the leader and 'I' am reminding him.). Alex ask me why am I alone and suddenly Jason keep asking "where's your bf?" WTH?!?!?! And he and Alex wouldnt stop bugging me. Damn they are a funny bunch.
Overall, a 7/10 day. Not so bad considering I am living, breathing, not cacat and Malaysia is peaceful.

I am bored. and tired.
I am bored of the work load I have. I am tired of the work load I have. YAY!
What a wonderful day.

crazy thoughts driving me away, way, way, way.....

~owari

Challenging Day

Seriously! Today was such a challenging day for me. Amazingly i was cool about it. In a way...
Today i left for diving lesson at 8:30am. Waited on the bench till 11:45 before it was my turn to drive. On road C (thats where they will be testing us), I had to press clutch and pull hand-brake. Then I was "suppose" to press the fuel, let go of clutch slowly and let go of the hand-brake. What i did was panic and the car engine died. ToT
I wanted to cry then and there. Why i have such problems with the hills and round-a-bout (thankfully there are none in malacca.
Then after driving around for awhile and practicing a bit suddenly i got confirmation that my pre-test is this Tuesday! Life is truly a crazy thing! My instructor is over-confident with me. She just showed me road a twice and road c once and she expects me to memorize it already?!?!?!
Oh I am so dead this Tuesday. And guess what. I have to skip class for this test because the schedule is tight and i cant change the time.
So i just replied to my instructor with... ok. (seriously I am digging my own grave)
After all this, i went to MMU to take Athirah with me to Malacca public library. When we reached there the guard said it is closed. #$%#^
I wasn't pissed but I was so disappointed. Then i went to a mosque and prayed. WE waited for a bus and i talked and talked. WE boarded the bus and went to Malacca Central. At central i looked high and low for an article (I was desperate by then). And no article could be found. sobs
So i head back for MMU, had Lunch (5pm) at kedai indon.
Then i messaged Siow wern and she tells me the article isnt due tomorrow. Wow
God I LOVE YOU! I was praying hard in my heart for His help. And He answers. Thank YOU!
Alhamdulillah!
Everyday, my love for Him gets stronger and stronger. (^.^)
Ok then. So that was my challenging life for today. starting tomorrow i have 5 test, 4 projects and 1 event to handle, all in 3 weeks. YAY
I bet the people in Iran have it worse so I must be thankful.
This is nothing compared to the test those people receive. I pray all the best for them. Amin
I LOVE MY FAMILY! Not one moment do I ever despise them! MUAKS MUAKS MUAKS
I love my friends TOO!
Tyrah, Fana, Syam, Kak Azreena, Siow wern and Josh (yes even Josh the annoying boyboy), i owe it to u guys for making my stay in malacca a good one. If it wasnt for you guys i wouldnt mind leaving to go Cyber. If you guys stay here and I am sent to Cyber I will really miss you!
If i dont go cyber but you guys left I will really dread staying here. T-T
Crazy gurl!!! Miss me or not! May we be frens till we grow old and grey.
Shockingly my mum told me Elley's mum wanted me to have a reunion with saudah and she agreed. I laughed at first then i felt like crying. But truth be told, Elley said she didnt agree. My mum had the wrong info. And i wanted to cry again. Things like this will leave a mark in my heart and it will never heal. I know its the same for her. I just hope, like me, she is having happy days. I hope she doesnt dread being my friend. I hope even with her anger she could say "Adyla was a friend and i cherish the moments with her, even though i hate her now." I hope one day she will forgive me.
Still, i never give up on these hopes and many more for the future!
WE are what we are. We do mistakes, we forgive some, we can be cruel and kind but there are somethings like these beautiful memories that i wish will stay until the End.

Quote of the day: without fear, there cannot be courage.

From Kino's journey.
It has begun to rain in a far off place,
And in it, someone shivers softly as they get wet,
Losing myself in the forest, i nestle up to the sky, visiting countries, coming and going among people and the journey will never end.
So the beautiful world....
Where did I come from?
How far will i go?
So the beautiful world...
I travel the world, going where the currents take me.


I just found out something.

"The woods are beautiful dark and deep,
but i have a promise to keep,
and long to go before I sleep,
And long to go before I sleep."

I just realize what this poem means. At first i thought i was about a journey in the forest.
Now i realize its a poem about death. Sleep in this sense is death. The poet is saying that even though he wants to die he has a promise to keep. Even though death seem tempting to him (a form of rest after the hardships in life), the writer knows he has to fulfill his promise before death. I also feel the woods (dark and deep) shows the unknown future.

Well this is my own interpretation. To each his/her own. WE all have different thoughts. Let our mind roam all the possibilities~~~~~

With a smile... i smile away

~owari

Since yesterdays

Ok~ updates. I left for Alia's house pretty late.
Original plan: go in the early morning
What happened: woke up at 11am, Alia went to JB, went to her house at 4pm

I watched movies at Alia's and had wonderful "Alia" cuisine. She knows how to cook and i envy her. I only know basic cooking and some theories of how to cook. Example: I know the ingredients to make curry but never tried to cook it before (and Im not talking about the Maggie instant curry kind of thing. I mean using santan, lemon leaves, spices and such)

Out of topic for a sec: I totally disagree at how society works. One day we are really going to forget our basic and fundamentals. Isn't basics important anymore??!?!?!! If we forgot what is 1+1 we won't be able to do algebra or any fancy maths! So, whats the difference with food?!?! Haiz....
A quote i heard before "Instant food, instant death"

Back to topic. I watched Curious George, Ocean's 11, Blast from the past and 300 (quarter only cause we got interrupted afterwards) at Alia's house.

Stayed there for 3 days (i planned for 2 days. end up 3) Had my driving class and the instructor is already confident that i will pass the pre-test (IM NOT CONFIDENT! Sure i can do proper but i crumble under pressure people! Im only human.... Breath in, breath out).

I'm going to have pre-test maybe next week. ahhhh~ Oh well~ Some say faster better. But my motto has always been easy-going. After the sleepover i came back. Wanted to do my article thing but ended playing ro and watching Kino's Journey (I just dl the entire story). Even after watching it i felt that i must watch a few times more. This story has a lot of depth in it. I loved one part of Kino's speech. It went something like this : "Sometimes I feel like a terrible person, but then I see that the world is such a beautiful place and it doesn't seem so bad anymore."

A quote from the story: "The world isn't beautiful; Therefore it is."

Life is such a fragile and wonderful thing and humans are such ruthless and kind creatures. This kind of things we cant expect to be same everywhere. Culture, race, religion, landscape, weather; All of them wonderful in their own way.
"These things will happen, because we are only human."

One part of the story a lady asked Kino "I shot the man. You could have stopped me but you didn't. Why?"
Kino answered "Because I am not God."

OH! Ohh!!!! My favourite part:
Random Guy: "My Grandfather said before he passed away "It doesnt matter which is the true blue sky." Do you understand what he meant Kino? What is the true blue sky?"
Kino: "Well, in my opinion there is no such thing. The blue in the sky changes depending on the weather and location. But all of them are beautiful. A 'true blue sky'? I don't think there is such thing."

My interpretation: In life, there are different things happening all around us. All with vast possibilities. But all of them beautiful and different in their own way.

I love this show. Makes you think about the world from a travelers point of view. Really nice way of traveling. I might do that someday.

While watching Kino, Athira suddenly came over (she just came back from home). She said when she reached her room, she threw her stuff on the bed and sat on her bed looking at her room. What was she thinking at that moment "here we go again." or "Im back" or "I so dont want to be here"? Whatever she thought its her secret.
She came and we had a chat and ate rambutan then we watched "the legend of the seven cutter" (my second time watching thus far)

After she left, i continued watching Kino and watch Brave story in some foreign language. aRGH!!! Now i have to re-download that story.

Oh well~ Tomorrow i will work harder. Gambaro!

bouncing away~way~way~way~way......

~owari

Taiko addiction

Ok~ Back from my day trip around malacca with elaine.
First we went to Jusco. We head to Mcd first seeing as both of us had no breakfast and it was already 12 afternoon. I ordered double cheese while she (elaine) ordered big mac. I paid for her seeing as I lost her shirt AND she was a really big help to me all through Gacc '08 (my wonderful assistant). She deserved it. Next, we headed to Taiko no Tatsujin.
Ok~ This is where the obsession began. I admit I love playing Taiko, but luckily I had elaine with me or I might have never stopped playing. My hand was So numb, the blood veins on my hand started showing. Not only was my hand red all over it was also hard. (my muscles tested to the max).
After Taiko madness, we went to Popular.
Main purpose: Look for article for academic essay.
What happened instead: We looked through anime dvd's (didnt buy any), we moe-ed at some anime guys picture (I am so going to learn how to speak mandarin in order to read those novels!) and we ended up looking for a file for elaine.

So to speak, we did look for the article (like for 5 minutes) before we got off-track and started to do other stuff. XD

While driving Elaine talked about what to do once we have to transfer to go to Cyber (she is going there as well).
Then she started pointing out Yuen's house and then said that Neo lives in that area. So... With as much childish behavior that I can muster, I asked Elaine to drive to Neo's house. She was more than happy to do so. When we arrived at Neo's house I called her and told her to go out of her house. She was surprised to see us. We had a little chat while she showed us her sugar-glider and cats. When it was time to leave i said to her "Our main purpose of coming was to embarrass you. And embarrass you I shall." So as she said goodbye I yelled back "BYE NEO! I MISS YOU! SEE YOU IN SCHOOL!" She grew red and laughed at my antics. HAHAH~ She's such a sweet girl.
After that wonderful conversation, we went to Elaine's house. AS I leech stuff from her desktop, she showed me her Maple characters and Yuen's as well (Yuen? Why did you give your account info to Elaine? She likes to disturb your stuff. hahaha)
After leeching and mapling, she sent me back to hostel (aka HOTEL). I then bought dinner and took some money out.
Overall, i need to pay RM650 for driving lessons. This does not even include my test fees. dang it.
Oh well~
What a wonderful day. Work~ work~ work~

With tried fingers and numb hand~ i type away

~owari

Before I leave

I really wanted to post this before i leave with Elaine to Jusco for lunch.

Title: ALL the WAY
From: Kino's Journey, the Beautiful World

The sky is boundless, because it's the mirror reflecting my soul,
It changes colors everyday as if it's reflecting my heart,
The white smoky haze turns to clouds,
Concealing my tears that seem about to overflow,
When something I have faith in begins to fall apart,
I close my eyes and make a wish,
Even on a night when I'm all alone and can't fall asleep,
I just close my eyes in the darkness and find myself listening closely for the radiance of the stars,
I'll keep running, even barefooted, because I can't give this up,
And like the moon in the blue sky,
I want to embrace my transience and reach out my hand.

Now isn't that beautiful. If you hear the song, you would love it too.
Something sweet and simple to start the day with.

With a happy gait and a hungry stomach... I sign off.
~owari

A Day goes by

Gacc People..Damn i wasn't there......

OMG!!! Im watching Hard Gay(Siraj) with some other guy dancing sailor fuku mottake on Youtube. Damn funny. OMG> Siraj, siraj. I wonder if after this, people will be calling you hard gay instead of Siraj. Poor thing. But thanks for the entertainment.

I went to KL to visit a friend. We ate at Tony's Roma and had ribs and grilled cob fish. God it was delicious. But unfortunately I ate TOO much and had stomach problems as an after-effect.
Went around Midvalley and bought comics as usual. Talked with her and walked some more. Then she bought me a parting gift (a pencil box). Thanks!
It was an amazing day as i have always wanted to do something like this. An unexpected travel.
Next time I just might get motor license and ride a motor traveling Malaysia. Sigh~ dreams. But I shall seriously reconsider this dream once I am 35. Imagine a makcik on motorcycle.... uh.... maybe a car would suffice or a bicycle like that guy from Honey and Clover. I actually wanted to do Kino's Journey style (but i don't really wana use a motorbike).

Here's a cool photo of some bleach fellows during Gacc 2008! COOLNESS!

Miracles

Why! who makes much of a miracle?
As to me, I know of nothing else but miracles,
Whether I walk the streets of Manhattan,
Or dart my sight over the roofs of houses toward the sky,
Or wade with naked feet along the beach, just in the edge of the
water,
Or stand under trees in the woods,
Or talk by day with any one I love--or sleep in the bed at night with
any one I love,
Or sit at table at dinner with my mother,
Or look at strangers opposite me riding in the car,
Or watch honey-bees busy around the hive, of a summer forenoon,
Or animals feeding in the fields,
Or birds--or the wonderfulness of insects in the air,
Or the wonderfulness of the sun-down--or of stars shining so quiet
and bright,
Or the exquisite, delicate, thin curve of the new moon in spring;
Or whether I go among those I like best, and that like me best--
mechanics, boatmen, farmers,
Or among the savans--or to the soiree--or to the opera,
Or stand a long while looking at the movements of machinery,
Or behold children at their sports,
Or the admirable sight of the perfect old man, or the perfect old
woman,
Or the sick in hospitals, or the dead carried to burial,
Or my own eyes and figure in the glass;
These, with the rest, one and all, are to me miracles,
The whole referring--yet each distinct, and in its place.

To me, every hour of the light and dark is a miracle,
Every cubic inch of space is a miracle,
Every square yard of the surface of the earth is spread with the
same,
Every foot of the interior swarms with the same;
Every spear of grass--the frames, limbs, organs, of men and women,
and all that concerns them,
All these to me are unspeakably perfect miracles.

To me the sea is a continual miracle;
The fishes that swim--the rocks--the motion of the waves--the ships,
with men in them,
What stranger miracles are there?

Beginning of midterm break

OHHH!!! I love GoodTree. I don't know why? Its kind of fun. In a way where we read how others feel about what happens around us and stuff. This morning after my Subuh prayer i opened YouTube to watch a little bit about Malaysian politics. Sad to say, it's still corrupted and weird. I feel that all politics issues are weird. They fight for the wrong reasons and bicker in issues such as "why is he single" instead of worrying "how to help the people". I wonder. If these so called politicians are aiming for the peoples happiness, why OH WHY are they so obsessed about winning an election or being a Minister? Who says you have to be a Minister to help? Go to some orphanage and play with the children, go visit school children and ask them what is bothering them in school. It doesn't cost a cent to be caring! Sure, being a Minister means you can help in the bigger issues in Malaysia but while they are busy tackling these so-called big issues all the small problems we Malaysian face are left forgotten.
I watched a video on the protest that happened in Terengganu and all that I can say to myself was "Astagafirullahhalazim!" Do these people realize what they are doing? That's someones dad, or brother or mother that you guys are throwing rocks at! Please BE A LITTLE RATIONAL!

What IS the point in joining these campaigns, go there screaming your lungs out to people to vote for a certain party? Who says you cant campaign by convincing friends and telling a family member during an afternoon lunch? Why do these people need to go into extremes? It's not like our country is at war or something! Sigh~ It makes the election more like a pasar borong and all these "extreme supporters" are like fish sellers trying to convince some makcik to buy their fish because its the best.

ISh! So disappointed at the way some people act. I might just be rambling here but this is what I truly feel and if that is so wrong to some people then fine by me. Some people condemn others opinion just because it differs from theirs. But DOESN'T anyone see that the bigger picture here is ALL we want is a better MAlaysia. Make it a better MALAYSIA then! Don't go around doing nonsense! Stop giving promises! Action speaks louder than words! Instead of doing all this talk why don't they campaign by helping villagers, visiting students and asking our opinions? Don't they realize the student power? My friends have their own views of the government and the way things should be. Why don't they spend time with children, students and people in general? Why go to all the trouble of hanging banners everywhere and having talks everywhere when you don't talk to people? I mean really talk! Not shout out nonsense and empty promises. GAHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So-called politicianS!

Back to my life in general. The midterm break is coming and i have a long week to plan. I will be alone (yes, alone) during this break. Im going to enjoy myself immensely.
These are the things i plan to do:
1) Driving Lesson (top priority)
2) Print all my notes and do all my work (swt. As if i ever listen to myself)
3) Sleep (well who doesn't)
4) play RO (well who doesn't. hahaha)
5) Apply for as many scholarship as I can!
6) Read more news and enjoy my tea.
7) Plan out my website project and academic essay
8) Clean room (again. after one week it became messy again. T-T)
9) Do something for environment and post a picture of my deed in my GoodTree.
10) Go visit Alia's house for a day.
11) Ajak (force) Mona or Alex or Alia or LJ or Mdm Idayu to watch movie with me. muahaha
12) Play Taiko until I am satisfied
13) Plan for UPG funfair and PBU business project
14) Maybe go visit my AA (If she is in of course)
15) Coming soon....

So far that's what i "plan". Executions of these plans: Probability 0.58
HAHAHAHA

TO ALL MY DEAR FRIENDS!!!!!!!!!!!! HAPPY HOLIDAYS!!!!
DONT SLACK OF DURING THE BREAK AND REMEMBER TO COME BACK TO THIS HELL!
HAHHAHA

I will be so lonely. But then again this loneliness is something to be treasured for itself. I mean when can i syiok sendiri if I am always surrounded with friends, right?
Syam, I understand that I will be lonely and sad. It's not as if i just realized it. I know it but I don't hate it. I just feel that I am going to miss you all. I wish I can go home but that would be wasting money (i mean come on. Going to and fro to Sabah is already like RM500 max). I would have gone back to Kampung with acik if it wasn't because of my driving lessons. I wonder how it would be like if i was sent to Cyberjaya. hmmm......

Oh well. after all my ramblings. With a painful back i sign off

~owari

PICTURES

APPEARANCE OF MR. MORITA!!!!!!!!!!!!! SEIYYU FOR ICHIGO FROM BLEACH!

VERY COOL HANDSEM GUY THAT I OBSSESED ON FROM A TAIWAN DRAMA CALLED "X FAMILY"

MY MESSY FREAKING LIFE SINCE GACC AND ITS AFTER EFFECTS TO MY ROOM.

MY CLEANED ROOM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ADYLA BANZAI! WO HOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

BAck to my daily life stories. Ok.... woke up at 5am today. Then i heard Kak Az say "Adyla, bangun nanti Josh datang." Ok i replied "Ye la... tgh bangun la ni. nak baring sekejap." Ok. After my so called "baring" i woke up and took my hp and dialled for lau Ping wey aka Josh.
He picked up and i asked where was he at that moment. He replied to me that he was on his way. Sooooo... Being the good Adyla that i am, I waited (on my bed) and slept "while waiting". I called him again a few minutes later and found out he was already waiting downstairs (the reason he didn't call me even though he was waiting was because he doesn't have my number. I sit next to him and wern everyday and he doesn't have my freaking number. BLIMEY!)
We drove off to pick Siow Wern and Kang Wei. When we arrived at Josh's house. The dogs started barking. GOd! The were awfully CUTE! Even though i can't touch dogs I really think they were just too adorable!
So, we made the sandwiches. At first we started at a slow pace then we started picking up speed once we knew it was already 7am. And out of the miraculous efficiency that my brain works I missed the morning prayer. Lesson learned: Pray 1st, sandwich making second.

When the sandwich were done, we used the leftover bread to make our own sandwich breakfast. I hate my breath smelling like tuna so early in the morn. I was late to Islamic studies and fortunately my amazing friends sold off all the sandwiches today. Congrats guys and girls!

I overslept later on and came to PCA tutorial class 45 minutes late. Thank God the lecturer gave an exercise and i managed to catch up with my classmates. Plus she didnt scold me. So far, this lecture is the only one i have problems with. She always seem to catch me doing something. I'm starting to fear that i might have a bad reputation in her eyes. YIKES!

Well, i was suppose to go interfaith talk but got lazy. I have to wake up at 4:30am tomorrow, bathe and walk to IXORA to wait for Jess to fetch us to go Josh's house to make more sandwich.

GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~

With droppy eyes~~~i blink away
~owari~

I realized.........

I realized that my knowledge on the world is very limited. haha!
No wonder i dont really care about politics. sigh~
Its my country and i should bother about it. but..... i spent my time cleaning my messy room while enjoying taiwan drama. haha
WEll, for now i know that Kedah = pas, Sabah = BN, Penang = DAP, kelantan = Pas, Selangor = BN
and.......... thats all i know. haha. I didnt even open news to get this info. got it from my frens. How horrible am i..... Sigh~ Anyway. Got exam tomorrow. Going to start studying soon.
Missed 2 karate classes and eating pudding now. My laundry needs washing!!!!!!!!!!
I wanted to upload pictures but there's a problem with the server so i will do it later. tata
With all the pudding in the world~ I munch off!

~owari

ps. I love my family. I really, sorely miss them all!

Something i found 10 minutes ago

The paradox of our time in history is that we have taller buildings but shorter tempers, wider Freeways, but narrower viewpoints. We spend more, but have less, we buy more, but enjoy less. We have bigger houses and smaller families, more conveniences, but less time. We have more degrees but less sense, more knowledge, but less judgment, more experts, yet more problems, more medicine, but less wellness.

We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little, drive too fast, get too angry, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too little, watch TV too much, and pray too seldom.

We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values. We talk too much, love too seldom, and hate too often.

We've learned how to make a living, but not a life. We've added years to life not life to years. We've been all the way to the moon and back, but have trouble crossing the street to meet a new neighbor. We conquered outer space but not inner space We've done larger things, but not better things.

We've cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul. We've conquered the atom, but not our prejudice. We write more, but learn less. We plan more, but accomplish less. We've learned to rush, but not to wait We build more computers to hold more information, to produce more copies than ever, but we communicate less and less.

These are the times of fast foods and slow digestion, big men and small character, steep profits and shallow relationships. These are the days of two incomes but more divorce, fancier houses, but broken homes. These are days of quick trips, disposable diapers, throwaway morality, one night stands, overweight bodies, and pills that do everything from cheer, to quiet, to kill. It is a time when there is much in the showroom window and nothing in the stockroom. A time when technology can bring this letter to you, and a time when you can choose either to share this insight, or to just hit delete...

Remember; spend some time with your loved ones, because they are not going to be around forever.

Remember, say a kind word to someone who looks up to you in awe, because that little person soon will grow up and leave your side.

Remember, to give a warm hug to the one next to you, because that is the only treasure you can give with your heart and it doesn't cost a cent.

Remember, to s ay, "I love you" to your partner and your loved ones, but most of all mean it. A kiss and an embrace will mend hurt when it comes from deep inside of you.

Remember to hold hands and cherish the moment for someday that person will not be there again.

Give time to love, give time to speak! And give time to share the precious thoughts in your mind.

AND ALWAYS REMEMBER:

Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away.

Drama over

YESH! Drama is over and midterm for pbs done. Assignment done. Played squash. Read my novel.
And all that's left is to clean my room. Drama was ok. Kak Az said our english was marvelous and the only problem was that our drama was 'quite' a bit boring. Sigh
Here are the pics:

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

From left: Syaz, Siow wern, kak az, scott, renga(bal..lo...on), Josh(The murderer)

Happy to die?

Ahhh~ the joy of strangling Josh black

The agony

Not me in agony though. My friends are.. Sigh. I wish i was a fairy and could make everyone happy. But that would be weird. (plus if i was a fairy i wouldnt need to study! WOOT!)
Sadly i have a lot of tension due to my friends. It's not the hatred or painful kind of tension. More of a "HOW the HEAVEN CAN I HELP THESE PEOPLE I CARE FOR".
A word of comfort? An action of care? A hula hoop dance wearing a poncho with a punk hair?
Ok. Im not making much sense out of this predicament.
Ooooo/// Kak Azreena just entered the room. hehehe
Well, a friend of mine felt lonely eating alone. I know how she feels. During midterm break i always experience this feeling first hand. As do many other people. Scary isn't it. The way we are surrounded by a lot of people yet feel lonely as if there isn't a soul in the world. Imagine other people who aren't as lucky as us. There loved ones taken away from them.
Sigh. Sometimes there are things in life where we have to accept and make the best out of it.
Alone time are precious too. When im alone i can stare into the blue sky or appreciate the birds singing up above or just simply take in another breath or another step in life.
So to all my troubled, happy, sad, angered friends out there.... Cheer up, enjoy life, and just GO FOR IT! If you are sad = be sad. If you are angry = be angry! If you are lonely = be lonely.
Cause you never know when you can ever feel like this ever again. Every emotion should be treasured just the way it is. So dont regret it. Emotions are partly why we are humans. And God made us that way.

With the spirit of taking PBS midterm tonite... i flee~

~owari

as i make

Im making the black cat for my drama. hands sticky, room messy, floor coated with gum, hair messy and eyes droopy. haiz........
DIRTY ROOM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i gotto get my self organised!

lalala~

my views on politics? No one is fit to lead us. they are all a bunch of glamor seeking, money spending rich dudes who happen to 'feel' its their right to control and 'help' our pitiful lives.

The end.

why you people

why does everyone like to complicate things????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!?????
Cant handle it? then just be honest to yourself and everyone else @$%#$%
Argh! Its so annoying! Mendok sena! Everyone is MULAU!
annoying! annoying! Problems getting high and everyone are making it more and more complicated. gargh! why wont i get to see someone beat someone else up then the problems will solve. annoying.

Can i shoot my friends? maybe not. but i sure want to! haiz.....
everyone around me has problems. boyfren this, stalker that, love rival this, stress fren there. Apalah!
And am i the only one who thinks the biggest problem in my life now is how dirty my room is?!?!?!? Why are these people so ..... i dont know la.... making things get worse just to make them feel worse. If it was me i will just go all out and say it ' as nice as possible' and solve the problem OR just live my life the selfish way. HAH!

Watever la. Cant stand watching as these people suffer. JUST GET IT OVER WITH and GO ON WITH LIFE! Its not the end of the world and stop saying it is! So wat if @#$$ is the light of your life and u cant live wifout ##%. ARGH! annoying. annoying. So wat if #$% is calling u. Just say get out of my face! So wat! So wat! SO WHAT!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?

STOP COMPLICATING THINGS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! live doesnt have to be hard. YOur just making it seem that way!

ASGHJKJEWQEetwrtsgfdxa sbghdhFDSgdfhdgjdfxn!

p.s. I wana shoot all the people disturbing my frens life. DIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WITH THE ANGER I HAVE...OVER AND OUT!

~owari

Second day of Gacc

Seriously.... i didnt even get to enjoy Gacc much. Sure there were a lot of cosplayers, pictures and free stuff, but it's really crowded. I have an issue with few things in life: bees, car rides, airplane journey, swimming and CROWDED PLACES. Now due to all the intense crowd and shopping i have a headache. I bought a new comic and a novel. Finished RM50 just like that. Sigh~
My midterm is next week Wednesday, drama on Thursday and more midterms to come. At least now i dont need to think about Gacc anymore. sigh~ Headache... >____< and feeling a bit like vomiting.

I still have to finish making the black cat... and get some boxes for the drama.
Then i have PBS assignments to finish. Im so lazy and sick now. My voice is half back. Pray it gets better.

I lost my simcard this morning and with God's blessing I found it back with the most miraculous of encounters. I found it in the lift near the lift buttons. Someone must have chucked it there when they found it. Im so thankful to God. Somehow i learned a few things in these past 2 days. One, i tend to get back the things i lost and two I have good friends around me. Sure im not perfect, but God always helps.

Im tired (although i didnt do anything much). When i was walking in Jusco just now i realised something. People are all living in a system. I felt detachment towards all the people bustling around me as they get their groceries done. Why are we so materialistic. I bet people in the old times were never like this. Is the system good or bad? No one knows.....

Well, enough pondering on life questions and time to enjoy the view of the sky as i figure out which work will i want to do now.

With the flight of an eagle..... Im flying out. Adios

~owari

Quote of the day: When things get rough, we get tougher!

Silence

Ok..... on the 29th FEB i walked a lot. A LOT! All day i prepared for the upcoming GACC '08.
I helped paste the paw prints, put up the boxes, cut up flowers and a lot more. I got mocked at for my lousy flower. Someone said "Why is the flower so ugly? I could have made better. Why didnt anyone tell me? This is so ugly. " Okok.... i get the point. Did she have to criticize that much? It hurt but not as much as i thought it would. Oh well~ Then art and deco division had to put up the backdrop. Through all the comments and the words of the 2 perfectionists in my team im glad to say we did a good job in the end. The President praised us, my bos praised us and bought us drinks and for what was worth I am VERY PROUD of my division. They did well and i can never repay their hardwork and their friendship. To James who didnt have his breakfast, lunch and dinner and slept at 4am; Thanks. To Cynthia for her diligent work and her passion to get everything beautiful; Thanks. To Raihan, Izati, Elaine, Bonchi and Neo Li Bing, for staying with the team till 5am and doing all you can for the team without a word of complaint and for your caring gestures to help me and my stressful state that day; THANKS x1000000000000000000000000. I can never thank you all enough. You guys really helped me lower my stress level that day. It was just to congested in the exam hall and tensions were building due to work, but you guys held it together and made me feel better. To Siraj thanks for worrying. To KAylyn who handled all the stress even as Siraj went out to do errands and left her to handle everything; YOU ARE AWESOME! To Morita sensei, i should have been more excited during your arrival (but i was emotionless at that moment due to stress and i didnt even get to see your face), sorry.
I even missed out on the opening of Gacc2008 due to weariness and the lost of my voice. As i type this post i feel the silence crepping up on me. From the hectic rock music and screeching singing of last night's en devour to todays silent resting time ; i feel a lot better.
I still don't have my voice back though. I actually cried a little when my siblings called and i couldn't reply properly. It felt horrible. Unable to laugh and talk normal. I feel sorry for the people who don't have the privileges God gave to us.
Anyway, i slept at 5am and woke up at 5 pm. O.o talk about 12 hours of rest!
Im awake now and i feel kind of sad i didnt go to the Gacc opening, even after all i have done. Sigh. And i didntget to see Siraj in his Hard Gay costume. Must have been gross. hahaha
Oh well. I love my family! ANd Im a genius. <----my new mantra
With the power of Gray skull... Over and out.

~owari