Moments of In-sanity

Can't study. Need motivation.
Is this inspiration or insanity. Or probably a little dose of both. haha

Last moment by mua

Shine and glow
That's what I saw
The moment you step out
I knew it then
it was our last moment

Maybe it was yesterday
Could be another tomorrow
It might be another land
Another face
Another person

However different
I recognise it clearly
Our last moments

You told me
If it's the last
Why not go with a blast

We laughed
God the moment was precious
Even in our later tomorrows
That moment will last.

All of a sudden,
bang bang bang
I felt our yesterdays dissapear
A drop or two
A blot here and there.

I cannot see you
Your hands arent warm
My side is cold where you use to be
But our last moments will last an eternity.

Dancing Colours by mua

I can see the colours dancing
When I touch a book
I see the words and world collide

Reality blurs to a monochrome
and the colours start moving
Its like a mechanism
That I cant stop from flowing

Watch the red blend with blue
Watch the green waltz with brown
and see how orange kick ass

When everything comes to life
You will understand how I feel
The feel of a novel
A book
A new life

An imagination isnt a pre-requisite
Passion for it is all you need
Come pick a book
And you'll begin to see the colours around you dancing.


Six degrees of Aggravation by mua (title:adibah)

Six degrees and you push further
The frustration develops
and it turns to aggravation

Any deeper
any further
Oh my control is slipping

You pushed me to my limits
I'll make sure you regret it.

Six degrees and any further
You'll find that your days are numbered.

Floating between insane red anger
and between calm collection
You see six degrees of aggravation
Burning, scorching
Branding you as my next victim

A person can only take so much
I think you know what I mean
I'll see you at the end of that road
It's either you or me

I'll make sure its you.

~owari
p.s. seriously... whats wrong with me?

Food and Glorious Weekend

Somehow this weekend is the best i had since the beginning of this semester.
Love ya syammy yummy!

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Here is how it goes....
On Saturday I woke up late. I was suppose to wake up at 8:30am but I woke up at 8:35am. So sorry Adibah. By 9am I met up with Adibah and went to Alamanda to catch the movie "Harry Potter & the Half Blood Prince". It was awesome. Made me want to read the book all over again. After one movie Adibah and I decided for one more movie while waiting for Syam. So we watched Public Enemy. It was FLAT. Not boring but not awesome either. Plus we watched it from the 2nd row so I constantly felt like vomiting (and dont say sorry anymore Adibah. It's NOT your fault.)
After the movie we went to Carrefour to buy some grocery and that's when we met Syammy!!!
God she looks the same. Just well.. thinner. I missed her.
Thanks for coming down to Cyberjaya to see us. (we know how much you hate coming through public transport... haha)

When she came to our house I cooked dinner and she feasted on the brownies Tyrah made.

Jeng jeng jeng. BROWNIES!!!
by Chef meister Tyrah!

Dont you just wana sink your sweet tooth in this delicious creation?
I know you want it.


Tadaa! The dinner I made for our house guest and friends: Adibah and Syammy!!!

Yummy meat!

Too bad the potatoes were hard... uh...
Thats what you get from rushed cooking... sobs

My so-called korean soup. haha. It wasnt spicy in case you are wondering.


Soup~ soup~ soup~

That night we watched a korean ghost story: Hansel and Gretel.
Instead of screaming of terror I cried.
Oh yea. You heard me. I cried.
It was so SAD!
It was a good movie and it cost me only rm6.90.
awesome yea?


The next day I was so tired I woke up at 12 evening. So tired....
We (athirah, me and syam) made sushi!!!

The rice!

The beginner chef(syam) and her skills~

The crab sticks

Me cutting the sushi

Cute or not?
hehe

Voila! The end product! We watched "mostly Ghostly" while eating our sushi lunch.
Syam then went home at 6pm. Missing her already! Come visit again syam and we can have more cooking experiments.

I did my laundry and bleached my white clothes and scrubbed the toilet (floors, walls and every nook and cranny).
My back hurts and my skin is dry. I should have worn gloves when I was doing the laundry with my hands. Sobs.

Now off to study for FAR2 quiz and MA2 midterm. The horror...

~owari~

Of A Thing

Once, there was a thing. Everyone had this thing and each of them are unique. One day, the thing in my heart decided to go out into the world. It saw some birds soaring and it wanted to be a bird. It tried to fly but falling hurt so much it gave up. It dusted its sore aches and continued onwards.
It saw a child playing and wanted to be human. But after looking at its reflection at the lake it can see that it cannot be that being.
It went onwards.
The next day it saw the moon. So beautiful and translucent. It tried shapping itself into the moon, but in the end it wasn't as beautiful.
So it went to a small deserted playground and waited in silence. And it began to rain. It looked up and felt its surface rust.
Oh it was tired. So very tired. Even moving became slow and painful.
So it decided that the things in this world were not meant to be for it.
It climbed back slowly into my heart. When it reached there it found out that it can no longer fit. After changing so much it was so difficult to fit back into place.
It sobbed and sobbed until it hurts even to cry.

I quietly picked it up and stroked the rusty surface. It looked up at me with desolent eyes and I smiled a gentle smile. "It took you long enough".
It tried to laugh but its voice was course. It was rough from fatigue.
I continue to stroke and shape it.
After a long long time, the thing began to shine and the rust no longer consumes it.
Now its back to being what it used to be.
Now it fits perfectly back where it belongs.
Can you guess what it said to me?

"Ah, yes it took so long but it feels good to be me."

Yes. It's good to be you. The key to my heart.

~the end

hahhaa. random story. haha....
Guess I was too bored.
lol

Time to go back to work work work
and of course...
FB

~owari

Just tired

Im not sick. Just tired.....

Wahahahahahahhahahahhaa.

Critique essay here I comeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee


~owari

Come and Go

How does fever come and go?
Can't it just go?

Everytime I wake up I'm suppose to feel refreshed right? NOT
Every morning I feel so horrible and sick. Only when Im moving I feel ok.
I get dizzy most of the time now. Even walking to class today I felt as though my world is blurring. My hands were shaking as well...
What's wrong with me?

Going to the pharmacy tomorrow to buy meds.
If this thing continues I will need to go clinic. Haiz...
Two clinic trips in a month?
That's a record.... I never go clinic this often....

Oh well.... Work work work....

Now to go research for my business plan. Go go go.

~owari

Anger

I guess the things people do are starting to get on my nerves. It's like I dont know what is happening to me. But I like it.
Who says being angry is a bad thing?
I feel more honest and more carefree..

I know... Im weird.

I sometimes find solace in being tetchy. Maybe its just me. But by being able to be angry freely it makes me feel like I can finally be honest to the people around me and especially myself.
I hate having to pretend just to take care of your delicate feelings. Pluck up.
Its not the end of the world.

So sorry to Eunice if it felt like I was angry at you. Im not. But I like this me. If you terasa Im really sorry. Didnt mean to be so bitchy.

Today played some scrabble online (I lost) and played UNO online with Sir Abby (I only won once).

I also finished my law tutorial 1.
Yay!

Today Gusta cooked all my ikan masin. And now Im ikan masin-less. Mama and Papa if you coming down to KL bring me ikan masin!!!! hehehe.

Lately I always sleep late... Getting all type of sickness. Haiz...

Well... Tomorrow and tomorrow and tomorrow, creeps in a petty pace from day to day....
And Im so tired of tomorrows...
I just want to live in today and forget about yesterday or tomorrow. Cant I?
YEa yea.... I know I cant....

Time for sleep. Ciao..

~owari

"Both the past and the future are ultimately determined by the choices made in the 'present'."

Food!

Last night I experimented on Korean soup. I dont know if it did taste anything close to korean soup but I loved it. Although I could tell the others didnt quite like it as much as I did...

Today, I invited Adibah and friends to lunch but only Adibah came. It was amazing! I mean I never cooked as good as today. Everything was yummy (well at least to me). So proud!! And now I present you "Adyla's Monday Lunch" inspired by Adibah. hahaha.
Thanks to Tyrah who puji my food. Lov ya both!

jeng jeng jeng
Adyla's Monday Lunch (lame name.. i know)

Cheesy eggs~

Fried veggie~~

My masterpiece of the day! Beef and potato! topped with chopped leek and red pepper.
I love this the most! So bangga. hohohoho...

Now back to reality. There's two cases of H1N1 in MMU. One of the girls is said to stay in the same block as me! omg!
Oh well. NEed to walk around with mask now?
The jerebu here is horrible as well. Waking up to take fresh air, I didnt expect to take in smoke instead... sobs.

Hope it rains. Hope H1N1 goes away. Hope all the mosquitoes here arent denggi infested. huhu

T___T
Am I destined to be surrounded with danger to my life?

Adehh...

~owari

p.s. Has anyone seen my hse key? it has a heart keychain and a keychain of dolphins and the word australia.....